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  A question I get asked at least twice a month is, “Kim, why do you laugh when you sing?” It’s there on many of our recordings. You can hear me singing and then suddenly a giggle comes bursting through. Over the years, many have tried to duplicate it. It has been a hot topic of interviews.

  There are a few reasons I might laugh during worship, but the main reason—and the most important—is simply that I am so deliriously happy. I am overcome with joy when I worship Jesus. When I worship Him, I can’t help but think about what He saved me from and where He brought me from—and gratitude comes rushing in, filling my spirit, soul, and body up from the tips of my toes until it bubbles out of my mouth in laughter.

  I am so happy He saved me. I have no idea what is coming next, what kind of mountains I will face or challenges I’ll take on, but one thing is certain: I will worship Him for the rest of my life with every ounce of my being and with every breath I take, because He loves me.

  ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

  Thank you, Esther and Whitney, for believing in me and helping me make this dream come true. Thank you, Stephanie and the entire Zondervan team, for your hard work and dedication to this book. Thank you, Banning and my Jesus Culture family, for always pushing me, supporting me, and loving me. Thank you, Lauren, Yari, and Davina, for being the best friends a gal can have and loving me despite my crazy life! Thank you, Allie, for helping me tell this story. You coached me through the whole thing, encouraged me, and taught me so much. You are a dear friend, and I love you!

  Skyler, you are the reason I can do all these things. You always push me, encourage me, and believe in me. You have loved me through many hard seasons, and I will forever be the lucky one. I love you!

  * In narrating this experience, I am simply conveying the thoughts and feelings that occurred to me as truthfully as I know how. These in no way are meant to suggest that those lost through suicide are any less loved, wanted, or worth saving by God. If you or someone you know is struggling with depression, torment, or suicidal thoughts, I encourage you to reach out to the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255).